Someday, somewhere, I swear, I might not be writing about you. Does that scare you? It should. :)

What's worse breaking up or having unrequited love?

In breaking up, there are memories to cherish and they have had  stories together which is hard to forget cos they know it is unlikely to happen again. Even if they don't come back together, the memories and longing will stay there and will remind them of a beautiful love story once told.

Unrequited love? I have had one with my prof. But it's not love at all it's just a simple infatuation that is. It started too fast and ended too soon. And having an unrequited love is fun; stealing gazes, unnecessary talks caused by not so meaningful actions for him but means the world for you. Having someone to look for is a lot more fun than nothing at all.

I do love a lot. But it's just that kind of love-love, love-love not the real love wherein seeing them from a distance is not enough. I miss those stupid butterflies and annoying but romantic gazes. I miss that moment where I never had to ask someone to take my breath away because they had managed to convince me to hand it over freely. I guess not knowing who to love is a beast. It makes you feel empty. And emptiness is such an evil thing. Tell me it is.

That feeling when you want to rush unto someone and give them a bear hug, say no words of comfort but simply stay by his side and listen to all things that he'll say. But you know you can't. You shouldn't. You can't.  And no matter how much it breaks your heart, you simply can't. Why can't I? Knowing that I'm helpless frustrates me most.

Cos you don't know me and I don't wanna creep the hell out of you when I suddenly jump out of nowhere and hug you. I'm not a creeper nor a stalker, just a concerned citizen. :)

CONDOLENCE. I know I won't be able to tell you this face-to-face or in any other way but here. I've been there and I know how it feels. You're a good man with a beautiful soul and I believe, you and your family will get through this. So be strong my little knight. You have a big GOD and your little angel will always be watching you from a distance.

Totoo pala yung nararamdaman mo pag may nakatingi sayo? Yung gusto mo ng lingunin si crush kasi feel mo yung tingin nya pero nahihiya kang gawin? Tapos nung nagkalakas ka ng loob na tignan sya, tinitigan ka nya lalo tapos mag-i-smirk na hindi mo alam kung nang-aasar lang sabay tingi sa iba? Nakakainis na nakakakilig haha. Nagnanakawan kayo ng tingin. Tapos pagnahuli nyo isa't isa patagalan ng titig ulit? Unang kumurap talo. Haha bata?

I enjoyed the simple gestures, simple smiles, simple gaze. I enjoyed the chase or the game we're playing. I enjoyed everything. No matter how platonic or childish or romantic it is, I simply enjoyed it.