Ridiculous Mess

The fact that I'm still feelin' miserable when I don't know why in the first place frustrates me most. I don't know where all these negative emotions are coming from. Why is my life so plain and boring? Why it can't be as fun as Alice in Wonderland? As thrilling like Peter Pan? Romantic as Jack and Rose's love story, of course cutting the scene of the sinking Titanic, Cleopatra and Mark Anthony, Romeo and Juliet.. wait, why do they all die or commit suicide? Geez, guess my inspiration for romance is a tragedy in the end. I'll just cross it out.

I don't know what I want. I just need some spice that will pull me through all this commonness, I need something bizarre. I don't want a man, gah typical girl asking for a lad to change her world. That's not the type of fun I'm looking for now, but having a companion won't hurt tho. I want something thrilling, mind-blowing and utterly crazy. Alien invasion? Nah scary. Be a ninja? Just a dream. Travel the world? If I'm as rich as Bill Gates maybe I will, without second thoughts.

But as of now I'm stuck. I'm just a nineteen-year-old girl that don't know what she wants.

Red String

I'm taking all my love back. I take back what I have said. Why do I even liked that guy from the first place? He's bull-headed, arrogant and conceited. Looks can genuinely be deceiving and I was fooled once and won't let it happen again. I've learned my lesson. Well I always say that, but in reality I don't fully understand some things I've done once so I tend to do it twice. Twice the pain is better than not knowing it. Haha.

But wait! This entry is not about him. I just need a place to fret. :)

So basically I just read the magic of "red string". It exist between a girl and a boy, lady and guy, woman or man, which ever you prefer to call it, that is fated to be together. A bond that cannot be seen by our naked eye. Isn't it exciting? Knowing that a tiny red string is tied in our little fragile fingers that is connected to that one person we are destined to love. It will lead us to that one person we will love everyday of our life and will never get tired of irritating, annoying and teasing. Romantic eh? I know he is somewhere out there. So let's be patient for now. But if he is still nowhere to be found in a year or two I will go and get him. "Ask for some directions you dumbass. Take my breath and take me with you. Save me from this mediocre life. I don't care if you don't have a white horse, I don't care if you are not a prince. All I care about is you, us." Okay, I should put an end to my endless reverie. Haha I'm not making any sense, excuse me for that.