Just had the best week of my summer. I wish everyday will be the same. That today is such a great day and you'll sleep with a big smile in your face because you're looking forward for tomorrow, another great day with them. Not a day did I felt lonely and even staying at home is such a pleasure. This is my last sem, God willing, so I know I have to deal with the pressure of school and it might eat me so unwinding is a luxury. Oh well, I enjoyed one of my numbered summer days so all is well.

Self-Control?!

Self-Control ba kamo?

• Yun yung oorder ka pa ng isang kape pero naisip mo tama na ang dalawa para sa araw na 'to. Kaya mauupo ka na lang ulit at titipidin ang nalalabing caffeine.

• Yun yung magbabayad ka na lang sa counter para sa librong humagip ng mata mo at pumukaw sa puso mo. Pero maaalala mong 65% ng libro mo sa bahay e hindi mo pa nababasa at itong librong hawak mo ay madadagdag lang sa collections of unread books mo. Kaya dahan dahan mong isosoli sa lalagyan at lalabas ng sawi sa bookstore.

• Yung nagtext s'ya at gustung gusto mo ng replayan. Mag-uunli ka na nga oh kaso naisip mo kung miss ka n'ya dapat dati pa s'ya nagtext. Kung gusto ka n'ya makita hindi simpleng "Hi" ang laman ng unang mensahe n'ya sa loob ng isang buwang hindi pagpaparamdam kundi "I miss you. Pwede ba kong pumunta jan ngayon?" Kaya hindi mo s'ya rereplayan at kakagatin ang kuko para pigilan ang pag-unli.

• Yun yung gusto mo ng mangsipa, mangbugbog at manampal ng nilalang na hindi marunong gumalang at walang bukambibig kundi trash talk. Pero naisip mong maliit ka, malaki s'ya/sila. Isa mo lang, madami sila. Cute ako at pangit sila. So kung mag-aaway kami walang mawawala sa kanila. Kaya lalayo na lang ako hindi dahil sa takot o alam kong matatalo ako kundi dahil I know I am better than that. Haha excuses!

• Yun yung gusto mo pang magbasa ng Manga kaso umaga na naman kaya hihilain mo ang sarili mo para mahiga sa kama at pwersahing matulog. Iba na kasi ang takbo ng utak mo, umaga e ginawang gabi at ang gabi mo ay ginawang umaga.

Ang galing. Marunong na pala ako magpigil. Haha pero paminsan minsan e bumibigay din. Tulad ngayon hawak ko ang librong Diary ng Panget na nakita ko sa NB, sumasakit kasi ang mata ko pag sa Wattpad nagbabasa. Katulad kahapon naka-isang grande Coffee Jelly at isang tall Java Chip sa SB at isang large na Cappuccino sa KK. At ang ending? Ayun nasa comfort room ang lola n'yo. Nasobrahan e. At nagreply sa isang text na hindi dapat. Hindi dapat dahil regular load lang ako, hindi na mahilig mag-unli e, nagpalitan ng mga walang kwenteng banat at nung importante na ang text e naubusan ng load. Lalabas na sana ako ng bahay kaso madilim na kaya ipinagpabukas ko na lang. Self-control, mapeperpekto din kita.

Donut?

Had an extremely weird dream. Something about a donut, a guy who lifted me with his one hand, a jeep with my undies hidden there (yes! I don't have a clue why it is there), celebs, a white washing machine, policemen, a bossy woman and a ghost that only I could see, with her flaming eyes and murderous aura. I am crying and almost pissing myself because of fear, but I am in a cubicle so pissing is a very good option. See how weird it is? And does it makes any sense? And a donut, seriously? It is not even a donut-donut, it is just a word, literally all caps DONUT! I remember the slogan vaguely like "she's hunting you because of the donut in the table when you're at the gym. The donut, you should know by now." Something like that or maybe I've jumbled the words, I saw it like the credits you see at the end of a movie. I don't know if that's a nightmare or something just random. Oh well, I won't sleep for at least 8 hours straight. So please help me heaven not to be tempted to go near in my bed.

Once

I never realized how lonely I am until today. How desperate of me to cling on the belief that I am happy. How can I fool you when I can't even fool myself? Or maybe I already fooled you cos I'm a good actress. Now I know how hard it is to smile everyday. That today is a good day and hopefully convince myself that it is a good life after all. But I know something is off, just can't put it in words.

I don't even know who to talk to. I've been dearly honest and open with my parents but not this time. I don't wanna worry them, that is the last thing I wanna do. I don't want to tell my closest friend. I can but I don't want to. She already had enough in her plate. She knows how pathetic I am and I know that she'll do something once I told her everything. She's like that, she'll do everything she can to help and it includes throwing herself in, that is why I don't wanna tell her.

But those things we're so the day before yesterday. Feelin' better now. Thanks to His guidance.

:)

No More Tears

After 2 days of mopping and wallowing

on my pillows. I feel better now.

Better and stronger.

I think I'll abandon my Mars One dream after all. I realized that they don't have tv shows there and internet connection. And if they do, what good will it bring? My fb friends and twitter followers would be the same 50 people or more I have staying there occupying the whole Mars. And I can't live without my daily dose of manga. As much as I love to go to outer space, my desire to know the ending of Naruto, Fairy Tail, Cheese in the Trap runs deeper in my veins. So no for residency, maybe a lil tour will do. But tolive there all my life? Meeh, I'll chicken that out.

:)

For Mama

When you held me and wrapped me in your arms the first time, I know it is love. Your love is beautiful and pure and patient. I can list hundred words to describe it and the list will go on and on but Mama, your love for us is beyond words. Marlene, Marly, Sis, Ma'am, Cutie, Teacher Marlene. They can call you all names but I will call you Mama.

262 days away from you and thinking of few more weeks of finally being with you. Can't wait. Happy Mother's Day! We love you. :)

Meet my gorgeous mama.

Ain't she lovely?

KK

Finally found a perfect place to hang out.

I never thought that I'll grew tired of SB haha.

So here I am in Krispy Kreme waiting for someone.

Kidding! :P

Mars?

I always believe that somewhere out there, there is a place where I truly belong. I am happy here but something is missing. That there is a certain void no one can patch up. And maybe this sounds crazy but recently I learned that a Dutch company is planning to send people in Mars this project is called Mars One. It sounds crazy? NO. This is perfection! Genius. It felt like yesterday, when I was in grade school it's always been my dream to go in the Moon. Now  this! A free trip, I mean, a residency in another planet! That is beyond what I'd dream for. So there are 5 Pinoys who submitted their applications and I will coax my parent to let me. I mean there are more than 80,000 applicants already so there is a very slim chance of me getting in if ever I submit a vid. Maybe this is what I've always been dreaming of. There is so much more out there and I want to witness it with my own two eyes, feel it and smell it on my own. I am so damn tired hearing stories of life out there. I wanna live it. Be a part of it. So wish me good luck! :)

Eh?

Oh gee! I've made a video for my mom for Mother's Day!

And that's my face for your entertainment XD

Romeo

"O Romeo, Romeo, wherefore art thou Romeo?"

I've been asking myself the same thing my dear. Where are you my Romeo? Am I not worth saving? What's taking you so long? Or maybe we've missed our chance of meeting? Or maybe there is no Romeo?

Urgh! Whatever I'll stop thinking about you Romeo. I am a woman and I know my worth. So I won't just sit here and wait for that douche bag to come and pick me up. You won't choose me, I'll choose you. So shut up and wait for me.

Footprints in the Sand, my favorite poem.

Something to reflect on.

:)