Tinatanong kung bakit daw wala pa akong boyfriend, choosy daw ba ako. Napa 'like omg' naman yung mukha ko. Bakit maganda para mag-inarte? Haha. Well actually aside from the fact na natatakot ako to enter in a relationship e yung taong gusto ko ang tagal gumalaw, daig pa na-stroke kung umarte. Minsan gusto ko na ngang sabihin na hindi magiging tayo kung hanggang tingin ka na lang, ako pa nga ata hinihintay manligaw haha. Let's get serious na nga, takot ako because I'm very jealous and extremely clingy I might drive the poor guy crazy in a week. Besides my idea of a boyfriend is far from what the world dictates, loving someone in a child's point of view that is. Like no ranging hormones or grim reality. For me a bf is someone I can be weird with, openly talk about everything and when I said everything it means E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G. Will listen to me, actually listens not because he wants to please me. Someone who will read books with me while sharing a cup of coffee. Someone I can be silent with and won't feel awkward about it. Ganun daw kasi yun e, it takes 5 secs to make silence awkward so if we can share a silence we're both comfortable of then that's a good sign of familiarity. Yung hindi maarte na kahit hindi maayos ang kilay ko still thinks I'm pretty.
And I want someone na laging anjan at hindi yung parang kabuteng susulpot at mawawala ng walang paalam. Consistent. But I guess yung guy na gusto ko e hindi pa kayang gampanan lahat yun. He's busy with his life. With his own reality so let him be.
Oh and btw, what scares me most is the fact that I don't know how to kiss haha. I mean is it something you learn or something you know all along? Gaah I really dont' t know how to kiss to save my life haha. Can I have a platonic relationship? I mean is there anyone who's ok with no-kissing-till-we-get-married rule? I think I'm an old soul so spare me with that.
-----Ang daming sinabi isa lang naman yung tinatanong. Oh well I'm a woman so you should know by now :)
