Perfect Mess

Have you ever had a dream so poignantly wonderful that waking up felt like an utter pain? So last night, once again you walked in the gates of my dream. Making a perfect mess in my life because of that smile. No one knows how much I cried that day we called it off. I always wish those thoughts to go away. But they won't leave me alone, gripping tighter, eating the light I've been holding on. There are times I don't know what is worse, missing you or knowing the fact that there is nothing I can do. I know I've already let you go, but you know what the saddest part is? It is when I still check my phone at night waiting for a message I'll never had. Thinking if you misses me now that I am gone. And who am I kidding? Of course you don't, cos if you do you would have had contacted me and not wait this long.

Rant Before Exam

We used to be so close when we were in first year. But everything turned awkward after that event. I genuinely don't know why all of a sudden you treated me like an infinitesimal being not even worthy to talk at. We can't even have a civilized conversation and that goes on for so long I almost forgot that we were once close close friends. What changed? I don't know either because I need not to remind you that you won't bother to explain what's wrong.

And after how many years, I demand explanation. Seriously, can't you man up? You made me feel guilty in things I have no control of.

You're just one of the many. You let me fall. And watch me stumble. Wicked.