So when was the last time I made an entry? Ha, and now my 1st November entry is all about me ranting everything. Spare me for that I just need some venting.
I AM UTTERLY FRUSTRATED. Yes you can feel that with my capslock on, right? I've been so so frustrated and vexed since last week. I've never felt this way before. I read that over and over again praying that everything is just a joke, and when I saw the pain painted in his face that's when I realized "Dang! What do I do now?", I don't know what's more depressing the fact that it's already there and I can't do anything but to accept it or the fact that all this time what I've always believed in is a lie? I'm speechless. And clueless. And hopeless. I tried to reason things out but it's pointless. This is exactly why I hate being so attached in something or someone I have no complete control of. And it's been 14 days and I'm still crying my eyes out.
Another thing that eats the little little happiness of my mediocre life is my effing school. Why oh why do you love us so much you won't let us go? Like giving us remedial exam and having less than 5 days to review? Are you sh*tting on me? (I've been cursing a lot, this is not so me but I guess the frustration gets the toll out of me. Sorry not sorry.) And because I love cramming I will open my books 15 hours before the exam.
