Crazier than your Grandma

I did something stupid last night. Like breaking down and crying in the middle of a call. It wasn't my intention to cry, no matter how much of a cry baby I am, and never imagined crying in front of him cos I wanna show him that I am strong. That I am no longer that girl he left 2 years ago. And as much as I want to hate him for treating me like a trash bin whom he'd take a look whenever it is convenient for him, a sigh of relief is what I've had.

I don't even know why I cried in the first place and when I realized that I am crying, it's already too late. He'd been asking me what's wrong and told me that it's okay. And of course that was a lie, nothing is okay. And maybe I am just tired, emotionally and physically drained and he'd just picked the perfect moment to make a call. And the last thing I wanna hear, is his voice.

Presumptuous of Me

"Thank you. I appreciate your concern."

I know I should be happy hearing you say this, but why does it breaks my heart?

That is the last thing I wanna hear from you. You don't know. You don't know. I am doing it cos I liked you and not what you think as a friendly act. Yes I am happy to hear it coming from you cos somehow you recognized my existence but not in the way you put it. Never in the way you see it. Don't get me wrong, I am genuinely concern and terribly want to involve myself because I wanna know you more. Somehow I am doing it for myself too by doing you a favor. It is my fault that I can't bring myself to pull away from you. I thought I'm so over you when you graduated last year but fate is such a strange thing. So I shouldn't be  more surprise when you knock on my door one day and tell me you like me too. And of course that's me and my wishful thinking.

The asymmetry of the world is just absurd. That while I am comforting you, who will comfort me? That while I am moving on, you're always there standing in front of me. I wish that all these bubbles just pop away and leave the hell out of me.

It sure is nice to receive a random phone call from someone. Like you can talk about everything and nothing at the same time. :)

Yay! Finished reading the first two books of Divergent Trilogy. OMG! Cliff hunger of all cliff hungers! The author is such a tease. Why oh why do you have to cut it in the most crucial and most exciting part? I hate how clever you are. I hate that you make it so addicting I barely sleep. And I hate how unpredictable you are and please do tell me why you kill brilliant characters? I hate you as much as I love your works. You're a genius! Mind lending your brain for a day or two?

And so God please help me survive 232 days of waiting for the third and last book to be released in the market. I can't imagine how to survive a day without thinking about it and solving all the puzzle, all the lies and everything! Almost 7 months of eternal waiting. I can do it. October 22, 2013, you better watch out.

Random

From my Pinterest account

Why Men Love Bitches

A friend recommended it. I've been looking everywhere.

National bookstore. Book Sale. E-books but it's not downloadable.

Poor me. Cruel world.

The Secret

I want this one and truth be told it is the cover that captured my eyes.

But a co-worker in my host training establishment told me that it is inspiring and eye-opener.

So maybe it is worth every dime then.

Divergent

Currently obsessing over Tris and Tobias.
And the action and mystery everywhere.

Shatter Me

Sob. Sob.

Tahereh Mafi is having a book signing in NB Glorietta.

I'm thinking of buying it last time but then I saw Divergent.

Without thinking I grabbed the other one and next thing I know 

I'm already paying in the counter.

This should have been the first and maybe only book I'll have

where the author personally signed for me.

Just Give Me a Reason

P!nk ft. Nate.

Two of my favorite people in one MV.

This is how music should be.

Love 'em both. Love the song! Eargasm!

Sorry for being insensitive. Sorry for being tactless and sorry for all those words, no matter what intention I have. The fact that it hurt someone cuts a knife in the delicate part of my heart. It is not my intention to offend or make anyone guilty. I said that in a humorous way but you've took it the other way around. I don't wanna make a drama of my own, seriously. I just thought that people are mature enough to read between the lines or maybe I wasn't clear enough. So there I've said it. I'm sorry and I hope it won't change anything you're too precious for me. Please? Sorry for being childish, impulsive, being a a bore, being clumsy and being slow and for being forever dumb. I won't do it again but I can't change the fact that it happened but rest assured, next time I do something as stupid like that feel free to punch me in the face. Hard.

I was walking back home from 7-Eleven. Then this guy kept on whistling. It's annoying how some guys act like jerks sometimes. He asked for my name but as always I put my head down and count my steps. It's beyond vexing cos he whistle again. What am I dumbass, dog? I have a name mister. Luckily, his companion told him to stop and that I am a lady. It made me smile and believe that not all guys are jerks. They say that chivalry is dead. Well it is not. It might be as extinct as pokemons but it is not completely, utterly dead. Some guys still have them and you are lucky if you meet one.