The fact that I'm still feelin' miserable when I don't know why in the first place frustrates me most. I don't know where all these negative emotions are coming from. Why is my life so plain and boring? Why it can't be as fun as Alice in Wonderland? As thrilling like Peter Pan? Romantic as Jack and Rose's love story, of course cutting the scene of the sinking Titanic, Cleopatra and Mark Anthony, Romeo and Juliet.. wait, why do they all die or commit suicide? Geez, guess my inspiration for romance is a tragedy in the end. I'll just cross it out.
I don't know what I want. I just need some spice that will pull me through all this commonness, I need something bizarre. I don't want a man, gah typical girl asking for a lad to change her world. That's not the type of fun I'm looking for now, but having a companion won't hurt tho. I want something thrilling, mind-blowing and utterly crazy. Alien invasion? Nah scary. Be a ninja? Just a dream. Travel the world? If I'm as rich as Bill Gates maybe I will, without second thoughts.
But as of now I'm stuck. I'm just a nineteen-year-old girl that don't know what she wants.
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