I fall in love with every broken pieces that you are. With every cut I got just to have you by my side, with every damage and scars I love you more and more. Cos I know you are worth of it all.

I fall in love with the mess that you are. Don't search for your home, cos I will be the shelter you need when storm comes and try to take you down. I will be the anchor in your journey, give me the privilege to be your stronghold, not because I am strong to be one but because you are by my side that I can be one.

I fall in love with the frailty that surrounds you. I want to hear your worries, your stories of brokenness. Don't fear to be judged for I know that I will love you more because of the woman that you are. How strong you've been and how brave you are. Now give me the chance to take care of you and cherish you. For heaven knows that a girl like you deserves all the happiness in this world.

Fall in love with me, please be brave once again and fall for me. I've been hurt, beaten and left like a trash. I've been lifeless and worthless and hopeless, until the day that I've met you. Love is beautiful, it is one of the most wonderful gifts in the world. Take my hand and let's rewrite your faith in love. For I've seen mine in yours and I want you to see that in me too.

Fall in love with me and once again believe in fairytales. I know our journey won't be easy, but I know that we will make it through cos our love is real. It is there, I am here. All you have to do is to take one more step, one more heavy breath. Just grit your teeth and walk out of that tunnel of fears for I will be waiting at the end of it. I love you and don't deny me that fact.

I fall in love with you cos you're a wall I cannot climb but wish to tear down. Gently, slowly I will strip you with every defenses that you build. I will, not because you're just another puzzle I wish to unfold but because I know that if I hurt you, it will pain me more.

I won't fix you, cos I know that no one can. For only you can say when you are healed, when you are happy and smile genuinely. But don't stop me from showering you compliments you deserve. Let me help you to see this world in different perspective. You are not the person you think that you are, you are more than that. Everyone is flawed and imperfect and I will love you still. So please don't stop me from loving you cos it's already too late. I fall in love with you; I keep on falling. Hard.

I know that I've been warned, I already braced myself with the thought of being hurt because of you. And I'm glad to say that I could only care less for I know that loosing you is far worse than that.

PS.

This is a little girl's reply to your 'Do Not Love Me' thingy. I wish you can love yourself as much as other people love you. Smile and don't hold yourself back, never think that you don't deserve to be happy.

PSS.
Purely fictional, speaking as if I'm the man you're talking about.

Kiss You Goodbye

I miss you so bad it scares me.

Never thought it would be this hard.

Wishing you're here by my side.

Sometimes I imagine you here,
caressing my cheeks that tickles me.

Whispering words I long to hear.

But reality bites,
I open my eyes and you're not here.

Your absence leaves a void in my heart,

No one can fill.

Never thought it'll hurt like hell.

Is there a logical explanation for this?

Is it medically possible to be addicted to someone?
Is there scientific procedure to cure this thing?

So Random it Doesn't Make Sense

Talked with my old good friend made me realize that I've wasted one, two many chances. I was oblivious of that fact until she rubbed it in my face. And it is pretty amazing how everyone assumed things, how they can know something about myself that I don't. Shocked is an understatement to describe how I felt when I heard her say it. Maybe I already know it deep down but denies that fact for it scares me, or maybe because I don't really see him in that kind of light. I don't know, I genuinely don't know how I felt four or five years ago, I forgot how I feel about him because all I can remember is how we fall apart. And I think that is sad.

Everyone thought that way and maybe he did too. And now that bubble of questions that haunts me for years finally comes to conclusion.

All this time I hated him for treating me coldly after that one fated event. All questions come running in my mind that time. I was lost. More questions but no answer, not even one. How he can easily throw that three years just because of a mistake. I always thought it is unfair how he treated me, how he made me feel so small inside. How he suddenly changed. We talked less but steal more glances. And after that he never looked back at me again, he just go on with his life without explaining things. Without talking to me. He just dropped the bomb and leave. Leave like he's never been there.

I hurt him unintentionally. Hated him even. It's just that, I think it is unfair that he will judge me that way and decided to cut me off without hearing my side. We've wasted so many years because of our own little pride and fear. We were young back then and we are mature people now but the pain is still there and I guess there are things we can't mend. Things we can't bring back like it was before and the only thing left to do is to go on with our own life.

Just when I though I couldn't love you more Eddie.

He look so perfect here.

He's dancing in my favorite song.

He never dance. Never. Until the release of this one.

All claps and hugs Ed.

You're a true artist and now a ... dancer? :)

Shings

Tinatanong kung bakit daw wala pa akong boyfriend, choosy daw ba ako. Napa 'like omg' naman yung mukha ko. Bakit maganda para mag-inarte? Haha. Well actually aside from the fact na natatakot ako to enter in a relationship e yung taong gusto ko ang tagal gumalaw, daig pa na-stroke kung umarte. Minsan gusto ko na ngang sabihin na hindi magiging tayo kung hanggang tingin ka na lang, ako pa nga ata hinihintay manligaw haha. Let's get serious na nga, takot ako because I'm very jealous and extremely clingy I might drive the poor guy crazy in a week. Besides my idea of a boyfriend is far from what the world dictates, loving someone in a child's point of view that is. Like no ranging hormones or grim reality. For me a bf is someone I can be weird with, openly talk about everything and when I said everything it means E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G. Will listen to me, actually listens not because he wants to please me. Someone who will read books with me while sharing a cup of coffee. Someone I can be silent with and won't feel awkward about it. Ganun daw kasi yun e, it takes 5 secs to make silence awkward so if we can share a silence we're both comfortable of then that's a good sign of familiarity. Yung hindi maarte na kahit hindi maayos ang kilay ko still thinks I'm pretty.

And I want someone na laging anjan at hindi yung parang kabuteng susulpot at mawawala ng walang paalam. Consistent. But I guess yung guy na gusto ko e hindi pa kayang gampanan lahat yun. He's busy with his life. With his own reality so let him be.

Oh and btw, what scares me most is the fact that I don't know how to kiss haha. I mean is it something you learn or something you know all along? Gaah I really dont' t know how to kiss to save my life haha. Can I have a platonic relationship? I mean is there anyone who's ok with no-kissing-till-we-get-married rule? I think I'm an old soul so spare me with that.

-----Ang daming sinabi isa lang naman yung tinatanong. Oh well I'm a woman so you should know by now :)

Gray

It's been so long since we've last met, I'm afraid I might forget the shape of your face. The size of your eyes, how pointy those nose are. How flawless you brush your hair, the smell of your perfume that lingers even when you leave. The way you talk, how you smile that hides your eyes, your voice when you sing. How you pluck your guitar and your silly jokes. I'm afraid I might forget them all but whenever I close my eyes before I sleep, I can see you standing close to me wearing that warm smile and all the feelings begin to unfold once again. The feeling I got when we first met. It's there. I forget you not.

Mixed

It's been a roller coaster ride these past few months. Finding comfort with strangers, making friends in the most unexpected ways. Doing things I never thought I can, saying things that's been long forgotten. Conversations I've made in my mind coming into reality. Been in a series of depression and anxiety but my family are always there to be my stronghold. Finding inspiration and discovering new things. It's exhausting but the things I've learned compensate everything and makes every moment worth keeping.