They say that the end is near. And of course they say that every year. But there are signs that says it is, it is coming. And it scares the living light out of me. I wanna be part of the Rapture, I mean who wouldn't? But what if I am not good enough? Not holy enough? What if I'm left here during the chaos? What if they torture me and demand that I should leave my beliefs and accept what they are offering instead? Am I confident enough to say NO? Is my faith strong enough to pull me through? No one knows who will spend forever with God and His paradise and who will spend eternity in the fire of hell. Forever and eternity scares me, I mean if you go there, there is no turning back. They say that a camel entering the hole of a needle is easier rather than going in heaven. If I knock will the door be opened or will the ground eat me?

I have these fears cos I haven't fully accepted and understand Him. I love too but I don't know what's keeping me ashore. So God please help me. You're the only one who can.